It’s a joke, It’s all a joke. (amended)

I’ve been fairly unhappy lately. I want to say I’m not sure why, but I know. I’m buried in debt, plagued by chronic pain, don’t give a shit about my job, and fighting alcohol again. Welcome to the American Dream? It’s a joke, and I’m not laughing.

Now that I got that out of the way. Things have the possibility of changing soon. There is a management position open a couple hours from home. I might finally get to see what I’m made of. I’ve been working towards this for the past 4 years. All in good time though I suppose. I will be moving regardless if I change jobs, which will be nice. I do appreciate the help I’ve received from my family, but it is time for me to get on with life.

A friend told me today that if they could give me one thing, it would be happiness. I’ve noticed most, if not all, of my thoughts on being happy start with, “I would be happy IF”. I’m going to try and start being happy just because. Wish me luck! I’m gonna need it.

Hope everyone has a good week. Whatever your doing, if it’s good for your mind, spirit, and body, keep it up. Remember, you are worth it!



Why is hard to say no? It’s just a word. Maybe it’s the fact that I’d already committed and have since backed out of the commitment. Maybe I should have said no at first. I’m tired of guilt tripping myself into helping people, only to regret it later. I guess I tripped out of helping this time. But now I feel even more guilty. Grrr, I hate most emotions. Being happy, that emotion, is the only one I like. It feels like it rarely happens though. I’m having a hard time right now. Just call me Mr. Unhappy. I’m sure I will feel better in the morning. Hope everyone has had a good week. Looking forward to the weekend.


This last week was decent. Had a few rocky days but it was nice being off work for the 4th. This weekend has been good so far. I’m going to get rested up for this coming week. I’ve got a feeling it’s going to get hot, temperatures and tempers included.

I will be moving at the beginning of August and am wondering if any one here has advice on what to keep and throw away. I’ve got too much stuff to move. There are a few sentimental things that I will take or store away safely, and then there’s a bunch of junk! Isn’t there some unstated rule about tossing something that hasn’t been used in a year?

Hope everyone has a good weekend and coming week. Looking forward to your ideas.

Remember, you are worth it!

Good times ahead?

I had a good time this past weekend. I got to spend some time with my nephew which is always great. He loves that new movie Moana, so we got to watch that a couple times. Went to a cookout with my sister, brother in law, and nephew. Got to watch some fireworks and eat some good food, bonus! The nephew wasn’t liking the fireworks too much but that’s ok, there’s always next year. Last week at work was like fighting a pissed off mamma bear jacked on meth, getting my ass kicked at every turn. Hopefully this week will be better. Got a day off tomorrow, awesome! Go July 4th! I consider myself fortunate to work for a company that doesn’t completely buy into the American consumerism of every holiday that rolls around. We get three major holidays off, America’s Birthday, Santa Claus Day, and “That Day before Black Friday where we feign thankfulness then punch someone in the face the next day for a good deal on something we don’t need” day. Hope everyone has a good week. Whatever you are doing, if it’s good for you; remember, you are worth it!

What a week!

This has been a trying week. I’ve been fighting a water leak since Tuesday morning with my dad. Turns out it is at the foundation of the house. Perfect. Enough negativity. I’ve been going to the chiropractor and it’s really been helping my back pain. That is awesome! I’m moving out of a slump today. Definitely coming into a better mood as this day grinds on. That is awesome! I’ve let go of the fact that I, being a man that doesn’t like to depend on others, even my own family, cannot fix the water leak. It was freeing, as dumb as that can sound. It’s up to someone else now and I’m fine with it. Which is awesome! I should try to let more things go that I can’t control. I’ve got plenty to do around the house this weekend so we will see how much actually gets done. Hope everyone has had a good week, and wishing a good weekend to all! What ever you are doing, if it’s good for you, keep doing it. You are worth it!

Good Weekend 2

Finishing up another good weekend. Got to see my nephew twice and found out I might be an uncle again. I’m hoping for a girl. Either way I will be happy! Last week was good. Wednesday I hit a slump but came back out of it on Thursday which was good. I’m enjoying this happy ride and hope it continues. Hope everyone had a good week and weekend as well. Here’s to another happy week ahead! Good night all.

Stay happy my friends, you are worth it!

Good Weekend

It’s been a productive weekend. Got the yard mowed, parts changed on a lawn tractor, and sort of helped remove an old tree. I’ve also been riding a happy wave for about a week or so now and I hope it keeps up. I’m enjoying it. Right now I’m watching Supernatural and it is good as usual. I’m back on track trying to lose weight and that is going well too. Hope everyone had a productive and happy weekend as well. Here’s to a good week!