You are worth it.

I use this phrase a lot when I comment on posts about sobriety and life changing events. It is not something I use lightly. I truly believe that it is true. You. Are. Worth. It. How many lives would have/could have been changed by those four words. So regardless of my demons and battles that I have daily, I try to remember that, and tell others as well. It is not a catch all for me, it is a be all. You are worth it. Whatever it is, if it’s improving or adding to your life, you are worth it. It’s worth the struggle, the doubt, the heartache, the ridicule, the success, the happy, the disappointment, the living of life, existence, the mundane, the anger, the sadness, the regret. But most importantly, the happy, the accomplishments, the success, the iron will, the fuck it. Everything else can go away. Don’t give up on you or your life. It’s always darkest before the dawn. Sometimes the dawn is far away, but it always shows. Hope everyone has a good weekend. Remember, you are worth it!


Good Weekend 2

Finishing up another good weekend. Got to see my nephew twice and found out I might be an uncle again. I’m hoping for a girl. Either way I will be happy! Last week was good. Wednesday I hit a slump but came back out of it on Thursday which was good. I’m enjoying this happy ride and hope it continues. Hope everyone had a good week and weekend as well. Here’s to another happy week ahead! Good night all.

Stay happy my friends, you are worth it!

Good Weekend

It’s been a productive weekend. Got the yard mowed, parts changed on a lawn tractor, and sort of helped remove an old tree. I’ve also been riding a happy wave for about a week or so now and I hope it keeps up. I’m enjoying it. Right now I’m watching Supernatural and it is good as usual. I’m back on track trying to lose weight and that is going well too. Hope everyone had a productive and happy weekend as well. Here’s to a good week!


So I’ve fallen in my pursuit to be tobacco free. Temptation got the best of me. But other things were starting to slip. I’ve gained back most of the weight that I lost. In turn, that has increased my physical pain which we all know is not good. It’s been a real struggle to stay sober as well. I’m trying to keep my mind and hands busy. The place I think I messed up in being sober is only setting the mark for a year. After the year passed it was like ok, I can drink again. I haven’t been down that road yet and I hope not to. So that is my advice for everyone in the sober-sphere with me. Set the goal for a lifetime if you haven’t yet. Maybe it will make it easier long term, maybe it won’t. But regardless of what has been going on, I’ve been in a very good mood lately. I bought some snacks and a dish set with the minions from Despicable Me on it for my nephew, looking forward to giving that to him. He is a big part of the joy that I experience in life now. Which is awesome. Hope everyone has a good week! Looking forward to what will be posted this week.


It’s always interesting telling people that I enjoy heavy metal music.

The other metalheads act like they found a long lost brother, as do I when I meet another metalhead. This one is fun. Comparing which bands we like, which ones we hate, arguing over who has the best taste in metal. But in the end knowing that we share a common bond, that not many people have.

Some people immediately distance themselves like I have psychotic tendencies or a disease. This one is the most unpleasant, since more often than not that is the extent of the interaction between me and whomever I’m talking to. Which is disappointing, there’s not an opportunity to develop a friendship.

Then there are the people that laugh. You like heavy metal? Haha, loser. What, do you worship the devil or something? This is fun too. It fuels the love of metal music even more and has inspired a song or two I’m sure. Then the people that laugh the “Oh you’re silly” laugh and just smile, but being a metal head you can tell that they just don’t understand but aren’t going to judge you for it.

Lastly there are the “that’s cool” crowd. It’s all over the place. Some hate metal, are on the fence about it, or just don’t like music period. I’ve rarely been judged too harshly by this crowd. Which is nice.

Well the cat’s out of the bag I suppose. I’m a metalhead and I love it. I really enjoy listening to a new band until I’m sick of them. I spend hours clicking through YouTube to find the next band I want to obsess over. I enjoy the look on my coworkers faces when I tell them about a new song or band I found. Being a metalhead makes me happy, sometimes angry, most of the time happy.

So that’s it for tonight. Hope everyone has a good evening and weekend.